Cut the BS

About a month ago, I did something that I've been wanting to do for quite sometime. I got a short haircut. See the "fabulocity" below.



And about a month ago, my relationship ended. Hmmm...does anyone else see the possibility of a direct correlation between said haircut and doomed relationship?

Well, honestly, I knew this person from my past would absolutely hate my new hairstyle. Actually, he made sure that I knew he would hate it by constantly reiterating that fact. I think that he almost had a coronary expressing his disdain for girls with short hair. Seriously. True story.

But the decision ultimately rested in my hands. Cut my hair and possibly upset this person from my past OR not cut my hair and constantly resent him and be disappointed in myself?

In the back of my mind, I knew as the scissors were snipping away, I was also snipping away at my relationship.

And damn, did it feel goooooood.
Yes, I am single. But I've never felt any better. Who knew that by cutting my hair, I would also be cutting out all of the bullshit in my life??? I don't know why I didn't do it any sooner haha.



So this is me. All of me. You don't like what you see? Well look the other way muthacluckas because I'm still gonna get money, and stunt, and stay glorious.

Things that make you go "hmmm???"

What do YOU think?

Fighters & Gunshots

"When the fighters are all around

All the lovers are underground

No one will save you anymore

So what's happening, what you rapping about?

Is it boys? Is it cars? Is it girls? Is it money? The world?

Man I really miss my pops

Hope that God watches over him and that he's on top

That there is no more disease and that he's alright

That he's one of the generals inside the army of the light"

Funny how someone you don't even know...more than likely will never know, captures your feelings exactly, with just one shot. Straight to the heart.

Nice aim Lupe.

Everybody's wishing for no more mistakes...

...And all that I can think about is you.

Still too young to fail.

Too scared to sail away. But one of these days, I'll grow old, and I'll grow brave...

and I'll go.

One of these days...."

That's a line from Chocolate & Cigarettes by Angus and Julia Stone.
It's been replaying in my mind for the past few days.

Because it's frighteningly way too appropriate for where I am in life right now.

While listening to "Hood Nigga"...

A few things came to mind:

1. What's up with female insecurity when it comes to how they look? I mean, of course I don't think I'm perfect or anything and I have those things about myself that are kinda quirky, but hey-it's all apart of the package that is Marissa. But it wasn't until this year, my first semester of college, being submersed into a life that I was not at all accustomed to, did I realize just how deep female insecurities go.

I mean, the jealousy is sickening. Ladies, talking about some other girl's "messed up weave" or how "she's not even cute anyway" when she clearly is, is low. Why can't females accept the fact that oh God forbid, there are indeed other attractive females in the world? And by picking out the things that you believe are flaws (or just creating imaginary flaws) and attacking does not help any situation. Well, sure, if you have low self-esteem, of course you're going to feel a bit better by the false comfort of knowing you look better than someone else. Yet, my dear, you need to wake up and realize that your words hold no hokus pokus force. Calling her ugly will not magically make her ugly. It actually has the reverse affect.

2. Guys. I'm just shaking my head.

Since when did every female on the face of the planet owe you? And when did it become a rule that we should feel honored by your presence? And when did you HAVE to be rewarded for the things you're SUPPOSED to do anyway? Yes, you opened my door. Yes, you pulled out the chair. Yes, you bought lunch...and it was the best cheeseburger ever. But since when do you deserve a standing ovation for those things? I mean, yes they are very much appreciated and they do earn you points...but don't get carried away. Oh, and why would you expect to get sex for doing those things???? And honestly be really offended when you don't get it?

Ahh...with that mentality, you and your right hand will become very familiar with each other. Or your left hand, what ever.

3. I haven't gone out dancing in quite sometime. That needs to happen ASAP because my dancing shoes are not being put to good use.